No one dares admit the ugly truth about Matthew Perry’s ketamine death… and the darkness inside him that he indulged every step of the way

No one dares admit the ugly truth about Matthew Perry's ketamine death... and the darkness inside him that he indulged every step of the way

In reflecting upon the life of Matthew Perry, I am struck by a profound sense of both sadness and empathy. It appears that he was a man who struggled with demons, both internal and external, throughout his life. His journey from “Chandler” to Mattman” seems to encapsulate the human desire for identity and self-worth, a struggle many of us can relate to in some way.


Matthew Perry was nobody’s victim.

We’re gathering a great deal of information about his tragic demise, much of it unsavory: The physicians allegedly providing him with illegal hardcore opiates; the live-in personal assistant who frequently administered him drugs; the close brush with death that failed to discourage his drug suppliers, enablers, or Perry himself.

‘Shoot me up with a big one.’

Perry gave his last directive to his aide, Kenneth Iwamasa, on the day he passed away. By then, he had already been administered two doses of ketamine, one at 8:30 in the morning and another around noon on that very day.

Forty minutes after Perry’s request, Iwamasa administered the crucial third shot, which they called the ‘big one’. Afterward, Iwamasa stepped out to attend to some personal matters.

Perry, high and alone, climbed into his hot tub.

All of which leads me to wonder: Perhaps he wanted to die?

No one dares admit the ugly truth about Matthew Perry's ketamine death... and the darkness inside him that he indulged every step of the way

No one dares admit the ugly truth about Matthew Perry's ketamine death... and the darkness inside him that he indulged every step of the way

It’s important to make this clear: If found guilty, both Dr. Salvador Plasencia and Dr. Mark Chavez, who are accused of supplying Perry with illicit ketamine, should face the maximum penalties according to the law. Their actions, driven by cowardly greed, put a seriously ill man at risk.

At a certain time, Plasencia, often referred to as ‘Dr. P’, boasted about charging Perry excessively, messaging Chavez: “I’m curious just how much this fool will end up paying.”

But Matthew Perry was hardly a moron. He knew exactly what he was doing.

Perry insisted on obtaining ketamine, regardless of its cost – an astonishing $55,000 that he paid to Plasencia within just one month.

Moreover, it was Perry who discovered an alternate supplier; a street vendor named Erik Fleming, who is said to have linked the actor and his assistant with Jasveen Sangha, often referred to as the ‘Ketamine Queen of LA’.

As the days counted down to his demise, Perry suffered a gunshot wound while seated in the back of a vehicle stationed outside an aquarium in Long Beach, California.

A few days past, he became immobile and speechless following an in-home administration by Plascencia. This happened several hours after Perry had undergone a monitored dose of ketamine at a healthcare center.

As a devoted follower, I underwent daily injections by Iwamasa between six to eight times, and on more than one occasion, I lost consciousness due to these procedures.

Matthew Perry felt the rules just didn’t apply to him.

In his 2022 memoir, he expressed gratitude towards the medical staff at UCLA Medical Center for giving him another chance at life. However, after being caught smoking on the premises one last time, he was no longer allowed to return.

I’ve seen my fair share of peculiar incidents in my years as a law enforcement officer, but this one takes the cake. Here I was, patrolling the streets of our peaceful little town, when I stumbled upon a scene that left me utterly bewildered. A Porsche had plowed into someone’s living room, and yet there was no sign of the driver anywhere to be found. No arrest, no charges, just an empty car and a gaping hole in someone’s home.

Why wouldn’t he feel entitled? He was rarely, if ever, held to account.

No one dares admit the ugly truth about Matthew Perry's ketamine death... and the darkness inside him that he indulged every step of the way

One source from Alcoholics Anonymous expressed that Perry found it difficult to handle the firm approach. I empathize with him, yet in some cases, helping can actually amount to enabling.

True. But all evidence points to Perry, at the end, refusing help – instead indulging the very darkest parts of himself.

Wow, I can’t help but marvel at the sheer resilience of Perry, a testament to life’s indomitable spirit! Despite his daily intake of 55 Vicodin, over 65 detoxification processes, an expenditure of $9 million on recovery, 14 surgeries, and nine long months with a colostomy bag – he never gave up! It’s truly inspiring.

He expressed that addiction has severely impacted and almost made a mockery of his life. He further described himself as having the digestive system of an elderly man, bearing numerous scars, and his abdomen resembling a detailed terrain map of China.

He knew that touching alcohol or drugs would only end one way.

‘I don’t have another sobriety in me,’ he said. ‘It’s going to kill me.’

He knew. Perhaps that’s why he pushed so many people away.

‘Angry and mean,’ one friend said of Perry’s demeanor in his final days.

It’s said that he angrily hurled a coffee table towards his fiancée, Molly Hurwitz, after she questioned him about infidelity with a 19-year-old on the app Raya, ultimately ending their engagement.

Perry referred to his long-term friend and companion, Morgan Moses, as “the kindest soul on earth.” However, it’s alleged that he pushed her forcefully against a wall before pushing her onto a bed.

Let me put it this way: Apart from the young women he asked to bring him drugs, or the nurse who left the field altogether after working with him, or his ex-girlfriend who threatened legal action for drug addiction and was stopped only by a settlement and a non-disclosure agreement, there are other significant matters to consider.

1. Instead of supposedly hurling objects and pounding walls during fits of anger, or menacing frightened women by saying, “If I wished to harm you, I could,” consider expressing it as:

Perry, it’s clear, had problems with women. He also hated himself.

He often struggles with recurring thoughts, such as feeling inadequate, unimportant, overly dependent… I yearn for love, yet I can’t fully trust it. If I were to lower my guard, reveal my true self, you might pay attention to me, but the fear is that you might also abandon me after seeing me… So, I choose to walk away from you first.

As a lifestyle guide, I find myself reflecting on the life of an individual who would have celebrated his 55th birthday this past Monday. It’s plausible that he had a desire to live a short life or perhaps had a premonition that it would be so, choosing to depart before causing further damage – not only to others, but also to himself and his legacy.

No one dares admit the ugly truth about Matthew Perry's ketamine death... and the darkness inside him that he indulged every step of the way
No one dares admit the ugly truth about Matthew Perry's ketamine death... and the darkness inside him that he indulged every step of the way

He never seemed to have grown beyond ‘Chandler’, beyond ‘Friends’, beyond envisioning himself as Batman — ‘Mattman’ was his preferred nickname.

He never outgrew his teenage longing for wealth and celebrity as the ultimate drug.

In his writing, he expressed his belief that fame would transform everything. He craved it above all else, more than anyone else on Earth. He felt compelled by it. It was the sole remedy for him, something he was convinced of.

I can’t help but feel a pang of sadness when I reflect on the impact fame and wealth had on Perry. It seems like these accolades, instead of bringing him joy, may have inadvertently become his greatest adversaries.

He managed to convincingly portray a character struggling with alcohol and substance abuse on the show “Friends,” having openly admitted to consuming around 16 drinks per day during filming, except for one season, according to his statement.

Co-star Jennifer Aniston, per his memoir, confronted him about it.

In my own words, I said to him, “I can catch its scent,” and during one of our table readings, I became so incomprehensible that the entire cast felt compelled to step in with an intervention. However, considering how lucrative ‘Friends’ was, it wouldn’t be surprising if network executives resisted removing me from filming, even temporarily.

In 2022, Perry expressed to Diane Sawyer that he’d appear “drunkenly disoriented,” as he put it, or simply stated, he would be extremely hungover.

But the show must go on, right?

Following the end of “Friends”, Perry moved on to star in another show as a now-clean, humbled superstar, whose primary purpose was to assist.

He boasted about being 18 months abstinent from alcohol as he marketed his autobiography, potentially peddling one final, grand deception – his supposed final thrill.

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2024-08-20 17:47

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